Am i lost???or coming with new life???

Actually i don't know about what am i doin in this period of times....
....break up with the one that i loved so much....
.....failed my engineering....
......retake my engineering course...
.......friends begin to stay far far away from me...
........everthing in my life was a mess...

What is going wrong???
i know it was my fault......i know my attitude will be my problem....
i tried....i tried very hard to change myself....
but why still like i lost myself in this world...
old friends like going far....far....untouchable....
new friends just a few but still unreachable...

What to me now left basketball football.....
things that i care that won't leave me aside or ignored me...

My feeling now was just bad....
no matter what i do i get bad treat...
i treat other well...and i just cared of everyone that come into my life...
and sure no one will like the feeling to be lonely and ignored....me too...
every cretures have feeling...

but life's like this.....
the truth is like this...
people start to stay away from you when you're in trouble..

i am still trying hard to fixed things back to tracks.....
and hope that one day....friends never ignore me...
and i can give good feelings to others...
so i can clearly tell everyone that i'm back......