It's almost the end of 2008

just to review things that happen throughout the years...
january...til march....urrm...i had my wonderful lifetime at national service...in there i known several friends...stanley,jeremy,khor,tan....really great time there...and also my ex...chooiteng...and then at the end of march....went langkawi with chooiteng,yimin and her boyfriend....although an accident broke my wonderful memories there but still ok lerx...
april....til may....errmmm relax at home afterthat just get my tertiary study started....study life started...
june....went to perak to celebrate chooiteng's birthday....not very long i stayed there...and was my first time went til so far alone....and breakup few weeks after the trip...
july till november....continues my college life and that times really sucks....i failed my first sem and need to face it alone...
november till now....just playing balls with friends and trying hard to hit my target...but i got not much....

things changes....it has been a lot of changes from christmas eve...that night my hair was a bit red...but i shaved my hair on christmas....
i would never let the word "tu kao"to be added on me....god damned it....
now that i have changed a lot....but i couldn't list out what i have changed....maybe only god knows...just let it go on....

i get what i want

on top is my new nike shoes...this is the third nike shoes i have so far.....like it so much...

and following is my dapper's jeans....like this brand's jeans so much...because the colour suits me so much...

i had used up most of my budget for new cloths.....now only rm 2oo left....hope can get 2 to 3 t-shirt more and that long pants that i wanted for so long....hope i don't need to spend my own money lerx...

shopping

today i went to jusco at B.M. with my family..

doing my shopping and hunting for new cloths...

the mall is quite big...and we went to the arena for lunch..

i had a sizzling black pepper beef rice...owh...it's delicious but a bit spicy....sweats are coming out non-stop...

and this is what i bought there...

aikz

this is the first time having muscle cramp after football for so many years...
but i am so happy that my defend was back but i lost my attack...
why like that???
when i got a great job on defence then i would come up with nothing with the attacks...
and guess what alan's doing?he keep wasting chances in front....and yelling at others to pass him the ball....that was the first time i'm involved in the attack...then i was a bit selfish...and made mistake on that attack...but then what for scolding me???
he can waste the chances but others just cant make a single mistakes?
where was him when others were trying their best in defending???did he pay off his effort to help???no....he just trotting in front....
however...yu chen's defend have improved a lot....that was a positive thing...and it's great...well done...

tired

oopz....football for saturday....basketball for sunday...and swimming for monday...
it's quite tiring....but it doesn't bother me....still able to have sports...
hehex...am i human beings??doing sports with painful ankle?
hope my scratches and ankle recovered soon...so i can bring myself to top form...

balling

it's so boring at home....finally i beat blacklist no.2 in need for speed most wanted...
almost finish whole story....now just waiting for need for speed undercover...
recently downloading....really cannot wait lorx...
wong asked me to play basketball at n-park....but today....my performance was so bad....
aikz....like that how to acomplish my target?
still need more practice....

new bag......

lolz....a man utd die hard fanz buying a liverpool bag?

very funny right???

but it was so nice and the best choice after i shopped 2 shopping complex...lolz

it cost me about 160....omg...

almost half of my savings....but nevermind....as long as i happy...

don't know why so like to buy things....

haha....going to kl to find more stuff...but not that soon...haha....

can't get rid of those memories....

times fly....so fast that i can't manage to stop it to refresh myself...
some memories bothering me now...
sweet,bitter,sad and happy times i had together with all of my friends....
i do appreciate those who support me...thanks...
but there is a short period of memories that i won't ever forget in my whole life...
it is the holiday trip to kl with peng,chikai and sze yee and toh...
and also trip to langkawi with my ex,chooi teng and also yimin and her bf...
i know siew poh from the kl trip and then wei wei and suan eng......
erm...actually there are plenty of sweet momories...but now...it has became my memories...
then is the trip to langkawi...with my ex...that was really wonderful time...
and i never regret that i loved her so much......
till now....i am still working hard to get her back....i would never give up........

hurt

I'm damaged...i was hurt...
my legs,my heart and my soul...
i was badly badly hurt...
haze blocks my path....

but i won't ever give up...
i won't give up my dreams...
my target...
things i would like to achieve in my life...

even though my legs are hurt...
or even broken,
i will still stand up.....and continue my game.....
never give up...

It's a long semwster break...

So far in my sem break,i had done nothing but just wasting my time gaming...
aikz...that was so boring...who's gonna save me?
actually don't quite like gaming lerx...wasting my energy...haha..
but what to do?
wanna go for a vacation but not enough money...i think my plan must be delayed until next year lorx...
nevermind larx...save more money...but how to get more money?
don't feel like working this year....although my pocket money should be more than enough for me to spend...but still i think i need more money....now still searching for my way....my path....to my new life...

Beginning my new life....

errmmm.....i think i didn't do quite well recently.....i mean before my final exam... and now it's over....lack of sleep cause me to caught headache....but i still think can get a result that just pass will do... really not to fail any more... and today's my final day having exam and it's also the start of my holiday and my new life... really will try my best to get what i dreamt of since entering Inti.... today is the very beginning and i think i got everything still ok...but can have more improvement... so,there're no holiday job for me...my holiday is just for me to improve myself...

my best XI

casillas

ramos ferdinand gallas cole


sneijder carrick gerrard

rooney

torres villa

my best 11..........

Something's missing in my soul

i am wondering whether what's missing.....
i know there're somethings...i'm going to have my final exam already........
but till now i still not done much on my study...
i'm trying to figure out what's missing....
and i still need to give more while playing ball..when chance drop by you should work hard and catch it....do your best,try your best.....and give it a fight....and now....i am desperate for my chances....i am going to work hard and grab it....

Few more days to go

It's very soon to my final exam.....about a week time then i will be sitting for my exam...
i am not suppost to fail for this time......but what i've studied so far was not enough to get me good results.....so since there are about a week,i must use my time wisely....and do more work....
everything is about how many effort you put in then how good your result will be...
so, to all my friends whether is from inti or not that facing their final exam,i wish them good luck...

Becoming sentimental???

i just have a feeling that these few days.....or months....i had become a sentimental lovers...
the songs that i listen are mostly sentimental and sad songs...
maybe i change to this because of things that happened to me...
hopefully i can change to the one that i want....
and towards my dreams...
i will fight for the 0.001 percent of chance for my dreams to come true.....

what am i doing?

i am wondering what happened to me these past few days....
i haven't started any revision.......aikz.....
why am i like this ???
really need to figure out what am i doin.....and make things right on track in a short time...
today i changed new phone.....se w760i....
but so unluckily when i go back ther to change the memory card.....i knocked on a satria that cross behind me...
my bumper was scratched......and that satria's door was a bit damaged...
so me and my dad forced to lead him to my 5th aunt's work place to fix his car....but he is quite nice .....just settled with a kind attitude...
so it's settled smoothly....
later on....went football at adventise......so damn tired.......im a bit exhausted......
but i will surely be back.....soon...

i wonder....

aikz....these few days i broke my rule.....that was no to go cyber cafe anymore...
why?why i just don't have the determination?
and just keep go there wasting money???
today is sunday and tomorrow college's life continues.....break ends...
but....still have many things that i can't change.....
from now 0n,i would like to be myself.....be the best of me...to show every one that doubt on my ability.....
since small....i have a bad habit....that is not to do things completely.....
and while playing football....i played many position....but why i just can do until the standard is medium class only?

so...now i determined to do my best....and these are things that i would like to change...
not to scold bad words.....
not to be so hot-tempered.....
pay more attention on my study,football and basketball...
and while playing ball....i would like to have a fix position....that is defensive midfield for football(that suits the style of me) and power forward for basketball....
not to go cyber cafe so often.....maybe once a month or once in two months....
these are for now......

Am i back?

I had found back great feelings when mixing with daryl and leon.....
With them....i will not get ignored......And for sports....i think i will get back my form soon....hope so...cause my performance still not very good.....why i lost somethings that i had when i was in form 2???
maybe is skill...maybe is stamina...but now..i have change a mindset....so that makes me think positive....and of course do everythings in a positive way...
when doing things,i will not to be the best....but i will give best of me......
and there's one thing that's for sure...i will love manchester united live long no matter what result they get...even if they get relegated....i am totally manchester united...and loyalty is so important to me....i would not like anyone that with a full heart to play for manchester united ...

and finally thanks...i think this is a mean of best friend.....won't leave you or far away from you in whatever situation......always give you advice when you're down ,when you're helpless, when you're in trouble....thanks to all of my best friends...

My idol

Name : Kaede Rukawa #11
He is a basketball players in the story of slam dunk...
his main position is a point guard....and in the story he is a skillful basketball player and the
keyplayer at shohoku basketball team..
he is an ambitious player that is to be the greatest player in Japan...


this is.....my idol.....

Life should be like this?

Is everyone in this world makes friend loke this?
If there are not any benefit then couldn't be friend?

this world is so cruel that you treat other well but then others treat you oppositely...
everythings that is done is only to make friends but till the end,you will get treated badly...
others may treat you as a driver when they talk in their daily life...
when met with situation that need car,he will of course think of you and say that "yea you got car...go any where also can..."
but when you met with difficulties like unsolve problems in acedemic,you speak out your question,he will be answering you"i don't know..."or just act like heard nothing..
while playing games....that's more sucks....
take dota as example....he go alone then 1 on 5 sure die....then he will say you"don't support....your hero sucks.....everytime you don't help....you let me die..."
It's so ridiculous.....and makes other feel bad....and treat other like treat you well is a must?
why can some people just behave like this?

maybe they don't realized that the way they talk will hurt....
maybe is my fault or i hurt others when i talk.....
so everyone will make this mistakes......
hope that whoever that seen this post don't angry of me....i doesn't mean any1...
just to remind you all that care for others' feeling during daily conversation...
of course i will also try hard to change my bad attitude...

High and Low

Every body in this world will face their up and downs in their life....that's for sure...
life is just like a road.....there will be period with lotz of cars or even not a car for a short period...
life should be like this....most of the time busy...
sometimes there will be something that make you feel down...but you must face it...
if you cannot face it,you will be a failure to yourself......you will be sorry to yourself...
when you met situation that you failed everything,just use your time to refresh your mind and see what's wrong and correct it....i'm sure the best of you will be back....

remember!!!
when you're down,
not to give up.....but to face it...
there will be chances for you and don't give up every hope...

oopz.....

Episode 1...
1. Six people I tag :
-dunno who to tag ler....

2. Six things I'm passionate about :
-all of my friends
-my sports life
-my study
-my future
-my family
-my future family

3. Six things I say too often :
-alamak
-kanasai
-shit
-gai liao
-haiz
-hoi

4. Six books I've read recently :
-slam dunk
-no more i think

5. Six songs I listen to again and again :
-No air(Christ Brown ft. Jordin Sparks)
-Love in this club(Usher ft. Young Jeezy)
-Dangerous(Kardinal Official ft.Akon)
-What you got(Colby O'donis ft. Akon)
-My Boo(Alicia Keys ft. Usher)
-I believe i can fly(R.Kelly)

6. Six things I've learnt in the past :
-to be not so hot-tempered(although can't change throughoutly)
-take care of myself
-face difficulties all by myself
-be loyal
-the truth in this world
-not to trust anyone 100 percent

Episode 2:
1. The last person to tag you is?
jiayik
2. What relationship of you with him/her?
friend....good friend.....best friend(for now and future)
3. Your 5 impressions towards him/her?
err......great person...hardworking...care of people.....funny......great when playing ball,i mean serious....
4. The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you?
erm....i think is putting something on my car's wiper???wondering....
5. The most memorable words that he/she said to you?
er....lolz....one day your white car will become muddy....
6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
oopzzz.can't imaging...great if is a girl...yik,when u wanna be a girl?
7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
definitely won't....impossible...
8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on?
be more like a girl....cause i dun like someone with same gender with me...
9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is....
this will never happen...
10. The most desirable thing to do for him/her is?
be his friend and support him life long...
11. The overall impression to he/her is..
a great man...
12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
hot-tempered.....not a great guy i think...
13. The character for you for yourself is?
emo....follow what i think is right....determined...
14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
hot-tempered....and lotz of bad habits..
15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
paul scholes...
16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them:
i will care of you for my life....you're the one that i care of...
17. Ten people :
taosheng
jiayik
weiyin
soopeng
leon
chooiteng
dillan
zhenyi
chikai
a secret person for now
18. who is number 2 having relationship with?
i dunno who is in a relationship with him lerx...his girlfriend gua...comfirm not boy
19. Is number 3 a male or female?
male of course
20. If number 7 and number 10 be together would it be a good thing?
i will kill him i think...
21. How about number 5 and number 8?
oopzzz....
22. What is number 1 studying about?
in tar college ar...
23. Is number 4 single?
i think so...
24. Say something about number 2 :
bro...

Regret...

i have live for 18 years......
and there are many things that happened to me in these past few years....
i have just one things to blame...myself....
i regret for missing the chance to improve my basketball skills when i was in standard 4.....
that time my primary school's basketball teacher had choosen me to join the basketball team....but i rejected the offer....
why?how could i do that???
And another things was why i din't ever try my best when playing football?my dream is to be a footballer....but now,my football skill is so sucks....
why i din't trained hard.....
And the last thing is that i didn't cherish the one i loved???
and finally she left me......
i really hope that i won't be regretting for the rest of my life.....

Is it the best i've ever shown?

Today...is a tired day....we played basketball at clhs....
although i was tired....but i just think of what i have done so far in my life for quite a period a time...
Slam dunk is the book that makes me thinking back of my life....
everything that i have done is not perfect....am i really shown my best....
i think not....just take a view on a few example...
just like playing football...i just can't managed to bring myself onto a higher level...
in study.....i failed and i don't ever tried my best last semester...
in my dreams,i don't actually work hard to achieve what i would be dreaming of since i was a child...
and in basketball.....i still can't do well too.....i realized that i din't pay enough effort on it and i am going for the final draft of INTI basketball team selection....
i'm not satisfied with myself....
why i just can't pay my all???
i'm sad of myself...
what is the problem?
lack of confidence?i think no....but sometimes yes..depends on the situation i faced...
maybe the main problem is that i'm lack of continuity in things that i'm doing...
i would not like to be like that.....
and from today onwards....i will tried to give my best......

Still can't throw away the feeling...

Aikz...that bad feeling still with me.....
why that people always cannot answering my question properly???
Iz that the way i talk or my language very hard to understand?
i asked....then why cannot give me an answer?but just keep quiet and walk away and ignored me....
getting ignored agian....
no matter in what way....
i am wondering whether this feeling must follow me until when??

maybe there's something in my heart....but at the moment i also don't know what that is....

Am i lost???or coming with new life???

Actually i don't know about what am i doin in this period of times....
....break up with the one that i loved so much....
.....failed my engineering....
......retake my engineering course...
.......friends begin to stay far far away from me...
........everthing in my life was a mess...

What is going wrong???
i know it was my fault......i know my attitude will be my problem....
i tried....i tried very hard to change myself....
but why still like i lost myself in this world...
old friends like going far....far....untouchable....
new friends just a few but still unreachable...

What to me now left basketball football.....
things that i care that won't leave me aside or ignored me...

My feeling now was just bad....
no matter what i do i get bad treat...
i treat other well...and i just cared of everyone that come into my life...
and sure no one will like the feeling to be lonely and ignored....me too...
every cretures have feeling...

but life's like this.....
the truth is like this...
people start to stay away from you when you're in trouble..

i am still trying hard to fixed things back to tracks.....
and hope that one day....friends never ignore me...
and i can give good feelings to others...
so i can clearly tell everyone that i'm back......

Am i still that yun chong????

So long that i never touch my blog.....
It'z time for me to recreate......
And this is my blog after redo..and i'm back.....